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October 11th, 2010

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I really love my life lately. I really, truly do.

October 4th, 2010


It seems I just can't be happy without drama.

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September 20th, 2010


You taught me how to make my own decisions, even if they were often the wrong ones. When everything didn't go my way, I knew how to handle it. I understand now what it means to be a happy, healthy, fulfilled person. I now know that I come first and that my relationships with others directly stem from how I feel about myself. I can honestly say that I wouldn't be half the person I am today without your guidance.

You made me feel noticed and recognized my achievements, even though it was something as small as a health achievement award. I know myself so much more now and I wish you could see it.

I will always remember everything you've done for me. I wish I could have said thank you. I often think about how I need to go visit you, and then I realize that you are no longer there.

I miss you Sandi Vanderpool.

September 14th, 2010

8 years ago today I was being an angsty teenager searching for inspiration.
7 years ago today I saw one of the last Five Iron Frenzy shows in Allentown Pennsylvania.
6 years ago today I ate Mamoun's and kerned my name by hand in Garamond.
5 years ago today I had a mono relapse.
4 years ago today I didn't write in my journal.
3 years ago today I was planning my trip to the UK.
2 years ago today I got a wisdom tooth extracted.
1 year ago today I was fighting insurance companies.
Today I realize how much life shapes you. I'm such a different person now, and I love it.

Ah. Livet.

Så många hemligheter. Jag gillar det.

July 31st, 2010

What was the best movie of the year so far? Does it have the potential to become a classic?

Inception & inglourious Basterds. Not sure if they could be classics, but they are definitely two of the best movies of the year.

July 29th, 2010

1960's Design in 'Mad Men'

While watching the first episode of the new season last night I couldn't help but notice the subtleties of updated design in the show. The characters have a new office which is decorated with all sorts of tables and chairs with 1960's design. Color also plays a large factor in the change.

This episode really showed how far the characters are getting from the 1950's design mentality which was so apparent in previous seasons. Here are some examples that really sparked my eye.

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Helvetica Poster
As a designer I couldn't help but notice the Helvetica poster in the background of this scene:

Helvetica is a widely used sans-seriftypeface developed in 1957. While overused in present-day design, it had a huge influence in design in the 1960's. It was something fresh and new which is the feeling I get from this new season.

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New, Groundbreaking Ads: Selling the Brand
Most of the Ads designed in the 1950's conveyed heavy information about a product. They utilized heavy body copy and their main goal was to sell the product. It is apparent that the show is moving in the direction of selling the brand. It is interesting to see the show follow these trends in advertising and design. For example: this bathing suit ad pitched in the first episode:

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Roger Sterling's Desk
There is not much that needs to be said about this, as long as you have a photo. The desks in the old office were very old fashioned and very proper. You can notice the influence of 1960's design by the bold solid colors and futuristic shapes of the furniture in the new office. For example: Roger Sterling's Desk:

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The colors in this scene, the same scene where the Helvetica Font showed it's face, really stood out to me regarding color. Bold primary colors, yellow and red, against a pale blue. A huge step away from the brown's and white's of the old office.

For me, this shows the creative department's design inspiration, and the welcoming of new ideas. I think we have a lot to look forward to in this new season.

July 11th, 2010

What message would you put into a fortune cookie?

Bad luck and misfortune will infest your pathetic soul for all eternity.

June 22nd, 2010

So we went to see the Daily Show with John Stewart today. A live taping.

Bryan and my cousin Dan showed up wearing ascots - because my cousin regularly wears ascots. He wanted to defend the ascots honor, since John Stewart made fun of them a few weeks ago.

We basically stole the show when he comes out beforehand and answers questions. It was a riot.

He mentions them in the beginning of the show and they might have cut to us in the audience.

Us cousins have done some crazy stuff - but this was by far one of the best.

Tonight. Comedy Central. 11pm!

June 9th, 2010

Morning thought


I have nightmares about swallowing pills. It's so pathetic. At least it's gotten better.

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May 28th, 2010


If you don't want to read this entire entry, here's the jist: Stop pretending to like eachother. It just makes everything uncomfortable.

Over the last year, being home on Long Island has actually been pretty awesome. In the beginning I felt stuck, I didn't want to be here at all. It was all forced. However, I grew to like it. I was surrounded by old friends that I reconnected with. I suddently didn't feel alone in all my hardships anymore. I had friends, distractions, and overall fun times.

However, over the year I started to realize that the group wasn't as close knit as it seemed. Every time I went out I would hear how much person A hated person B. Or what Person C did to Person D to make them mad. It seemed that every week someone else hated someone, or someone screwed someone over, or all of a sudden this person was no longer friends with this person. etc. Then next week it would change.

It escalated to the point of not knowing who liked who. Not knowing who to invite where, because they might not like someone attending. This wouldn't be that much of a problem if people didn't pretend to like eachother. I'd go to a bar one night, and everything would be dandy, then I'd hear one week later that Person A hated person B because of this, that, and the other thing. It gets aggravating.

There have been a few graduation parties this month, and quite frankly, I'm sick of it all. This person isn't invited to this one, or that one, or the other one, etc, etc, etc. Event though I wasn't the one not invited - I'm still not attending. I'm sick of everyone being fake. I'd rather stay home than sit in a bar with a bunch of people pretending to like each other. it seems that our Monday night hangouts at The Cup are the only times that the group actually likes each other, and doesn't complain about each other. It's nice.

It's like you never know who hates or likes you when. It makes me feel self conscious hearing everyone talk badly about people because well — what do they say when i'm not around.  I guess what I'm trying to say is - don't pretend to like someone one day - and then deliberately not invite them to a party the next.

That's all I really need to say, and I don't care if it makes anyone mad. I'm just sick of it, and I want to hang out and be friends with people that actually like me, and like each other.


May 21st, 2010



That is all.

16 Days!

I move in about 16 days!! :-o :-o

May 18th, 2010


Moving to Astoria as of June 5th!
Super excited. It's about time.

May 10th, 2010

No more picc line!!


I got my picc line out at my LLMDs office today! It feels great to have it out after almost a year. It seems wired though because I still feel like I have it in.

I'm very happy with my progress over the last year. Things has been going really well healthwise and otherwise.

I'm excited to go in the lake while camping, the pool at BBQs this summer. Last summer put a damper on that because the picc line couldn't get wet. Showering will also now be less of a hassle.

I'll be off abx for 3 months. I'm only taking collodial silver and supplements. We will see how things go.

I might need another picc line in the future but for now can almost smell remission - it's a sweet smell.

Time to doze off on the train!

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May 5th, 2010

With so many features available on mobile phones, talking is not always everyone’s first priority. What do you use your phone for the most? What features couldn’t you live without?

I personally hate talking on the phone. I use my phone for texting, checking my e-mail, facebooking, twittering, playing games, going on AIM, etc.

It's a rare occasion I have a phone call that lasts more than 4 or 5 minutes. However, it is because of my dislike for speaking on the phone, not the distraction of my phones other features.

April 15th, 2010

Check out this article written by the Long Island Press:

Gluten Free: Millions Have Celiac, Few Diagnosed

It's awesome to see people writing about our cause! Comment and share!

April 10th, 2010

In my office building there is a small Italian restaurant that serves a few "low calorie" dishes. Most of them are also gluten free. When I inquired about "Zuchinni Linguini" I was pleasantly surprised that it contained no pasta whatsoever. Zuchinni's are cut in small strips to mimic long pasta and are simply sauteed in sauce, olive oil, and garlic. I thought I'd share the recipe.

Servings: 3 (can easily be doubled)
Total Cost With Salad: about $9-10
Total Cost Without Salad: <$5

Zuchinni Linguini
4 small-medium zucchinis.
1 can of crushed tomatoes - 28oz
1 small can of tomato sauce - 8oz
Dash of Franks Red Hot Sauce
Italian Spices

Salad (you can make whatever salad you choose, but this is what we made)
1/2 bag mixed lettuce add fresh spinach leaves
1/2 of a tomato
1 cucumber
1 apple
Handful of Broccoli or Bean sprouts
Dressing of your choosing
Parmesan Cheese to taste


1. Prepare Salad. Slice and dice to your liking.

2. Cut Zucchini into thin strips. Do not peel

3. Sautee Zucchini in olive oil and garlic

4. When Zuchinni is half cooked, add both cans of tomatoes. Add your favorite Italian spices and add a few dashes of hot sauce.

5. Simmer for at least 15 minutes so tomato sauce can cook throughly.

6. Make sure zucchini is cooked thoroughly.
7. Serve & Enjoy!

This is an easy and fun dish to make. Gluten Free and delicious. it gives you that "pasta feeling" without actually having Pasta. I know there are gluten free pastas out there but sometimes you just want something different. The dish also heats up well as leftovers. Great to bring to work. Here is a photo of the finished product:


April 4th, 2010

Do you stay in touch with your former romantic partners? Have most of your break-ups been amicable or messy?

I am friends with almost all of my Exes.
If I don't talk to an Ex it is usually because they ignore me or make no effort.
Even in my tough breakups — we still remained friends.

Just a Quick Entry...

Bryan and I went to a Tag sale today in Hicksville. It was the home of a 95 year old couple who had recently moved to North Carolina. They were not present, and they told whoever was in charge to sell everything in the house. We were basically able to walk into every room and could buy anything. I got a few old magazines to make buttons out of and a set of dominoes. Also some little things here and there like packing tape, letter stencils, etc.

As we were leaving it really made me think. How does one get to that point of thinking? Do we get to a point in our lives where we are able to just leave everything behind? As you age do you start to feel like you have "lived enough?"

Maybe it is because I am young, but I just can't see myself ever thinking this way.
This was just my thought of the day and thought I would share.

March 29th, 2010

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March 23rd, 2010

Writer's Block: Secret song

What's the most embarrassing CD or track in your music library? How often do you listen to it? Do you share it with your friends or keep it to yourself?

I probably listen to way too much Lady Gaga.

I still also love Lifehouse, Chumbawamba, Eisley, Infected Mushroom, Josh Groban, Panic! At the Disco, Vertical Horizon, and Plenty of Classical and Americana.

I don't keep it a secret, but I don't go waving a flag either ;)

March 16th, 2010

If you could choose which fashions would go out of style permanently, what would you choose, and why?

Trucker Hats. Seriously. Trucker Hats.

March 3rd, 2010

If you could only listen to one music genre for the rest of your life (classical, rock, jazz, etc.), what would you choose, and why?

Ska. All Waves.


March 2nd, 2010


My Live Journal has been backed up and exported! I've had a Live Journal since 2002 and it would be a shame to lost it all.
Thanks barrelofrain for showing me how! :D
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